I don't do anything in my life half-way.
If I'm in it, I'm in it to win it.
This translates into many positive things in my life -- when a job needs to get done, you can rest assured that I won't quit until it is perfect, no matter how long it takes. I don't just clean the sink, I scour the house. Sure, I'll go for a run or two, but ultimately, I want to run the marathon. Similarly
(since we're already using weird expressions), I often throw the baby out with the bathwater. One missed breakfast turns into chinese food for lunch and pizza for dinner. A day of dehydration turns into an evening of wine. My week-long absence from the gym could be blamed on many things
(cold, snow, work stress, a bad headache last weekend), and many of those are good excuses, but last night when I found myself driving through Wendy's for dinner
(albeit for a grilled chicken sandwich and a baked potato), I knew it was time to pull myself together and do some "retracking."
I've never been one of those people who shrugs and says, "Well, I already ate over my points for the day, might as well go for broke." To me, that's like stumbling down a couple of steps and then throwing yourself down the rest of the staircase. Every bite you take is an opportunity to make a better choice -- but somehow, this week, it was just easier not to try.
I'd worked late --
weird for a Friday -- and after I went home and ate my crappy dinner, I packed a small bag and went to the Manfriends house, where we watched a silly movie -- I could barely keep my eyes open. I drank water all night, and we were in bed before midnight. I didn't sleep very well, but this morning when he left to go meet a friend at the gym for racquetball, I headed my own way -- I was clad in workout clothes, so my first instinct was to hit MY gym -- but I realized that going straight to the gym on an empty stomach was not only a bad idea, but was going to lead to many more bad ideas throughout the course of the weekend. I diverted, hit the empty grocery store
(It was only 8:30. And -- shocker -- it's snowing again in Minneapolis), and after spending an atrocious amount of money, headed home for a few hours with a solid agenda in mind. I'd stopped in with the intention of picking up smoothie ingredients and some salad fixings for lunch -- but once I was there, I knew I needed to take advantage of my quiet mind and clear schedule.
Those who know me know that there are three universal truths about Jessica:
1) My fridge is always stocked with healthy food.
2) My bed is always made.
3) I am never
-- NEVER -- late (and if I'm going to be, I call).
So imagine my OWN shock when I realized I was coming home to this:
Granted, I had thrown away a few things before taking this picture --
almost spoiled milk, past-their-prime vegetables, and a sad little bag of withered grapes -- but my condiment-to-food ratio rivaled that of any bachelor pad kitchen I've ever met.
It's pretty bad when the only thing in your vegetable crisper is your chillable eye mask.
Not only was my fridge EMPTY, but the lack of actual food product made it pretty obvious that it was also in desperate need of a good scrub-down. So I got to work.
What's that I said about not doing anything half-assed?
Things started to take shape. Within an hour and a half, the crisper was filled with vegetables...
...Greek yogurt as far as the eye can see
(Fage 2% for morning smoothies; Chobani pineapple for afternoon snacks)...
Precooked chicken breasts for easy lunch-time salads... polenta to have with eggs...
And that lonely clove of garlic on my vacant produce platter was suddenly surrounded with new friends!
Much better!
I threw out some unnecessary snacks...
Arranged the pantry...
And got to work prepping my week's vegetables.
Breaking my favorite knife* in the process, and ruining every perfectly polished fingernail.
All of this while sipping a smoothie, running the dishwasher, and doing a load of laundry.
I'm drinking water like it's my job while I type and catch up on TiVo -- next up is a giant salad for lunch, and perhaps a later-than-planned trip to the gym before heading back to Manfriends for dinner.
Goal for the week is 3 workouts + preparing every meal myself**.
I'm not going to meet my February workout goal -- in fact, even if I work out today, tomorrow, and Monday, I'll still be two workouts short.
Thank goodness March is the start of a new month.
Spring can't be far behind.
Off and running,
~Jessica
*I STILL don't understand quite how this happened -- I dropped the knife, and thank God jumped out of the way as to not lose a toe, but it simply snapped in half when it hit the floor. Weird, because I have wood floors, and also because it is a really high quality knife-- calphalon. Guess I'll be picking up a new one, since that one is the perfect size for slicing and chopping.
**I have dinner plans on Wednesday, so that is the only exception. But it is dinner at my parents house, and my mom is a healthy cook, so I'm not worried.